One thing that I really want these days is a good night sleep. It’s hard to get at least 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep because I’m still bothered by what the doctor told me for almost two weeks now. I’m not going to say more about the test result and what the diagnosis is, but if it is true and she’s not mistaken then I’m kinda f****d up. Though if I really have this type of disease, it doesn’t mean that I can’t live a normal life but it means that later when I get old-I gonna have to take tablets to keep me from a sudden death or something.

Again, this is my another “why”. Why this? Why now? I’m too young for this but reality is that we all die or at get sick regardless of our age. I guess I’m just a bit emotional because I’ve never thought that someone like me who is living an active life have this alleged disease.

However, this gave me another perspective in my life- to appreciate every single thing around me (big or small!) because who knows how much time I have left to spend /connect with the people I treasure the most.