Frustration and Guilt

I’d be lying if I said this pregnancy has been pure bliss. Yes, I’m looking forward to meeting this little one, but I’m already tired and exhausted—mentally drained, too. For the past weeks, I’ve been struggling to get enough sleep because of a clogged nose, headaches, and at least two bathroom visits every night. On top of that, I’ve had a cold and flu that just won’t go away. I kept telling myself that this was normal and just hormonal; however, the symptoms worsened, and I started to feel even sicker.

Then we found out that some family members had contracted whooping cough, likely during our Christmas gathering. Because of this, I went back to my GP to get tested. Today, the PCR result came back negative, but another doctor took blood samples. Once again, it’s a waiting game, and I’m really tired of it. I want to get back to work because I’m bored and exhausted from being at home all week and feeling miserable about my condition. I also feel guilty about the unfinished chores at home and the lack of attention and care my family receives from me while I’m sick, as I’ve had to prioritize self-care and recovery.

Anyway, I’m doing my best to stay calm and avoid stress. I hope to feel better soon.