Cannot Hide it Anymore

I have never been to a psychologist but I think my anxiety got worse. Worse because I find myself being stressed from the previous years happenings and events. Some of my plans did not turn out the way I wanted it because of the things that has happened. I think I am too weak to fight or I just let things be that way without giving a f***.

One of the things in my bucket lists a couple of years ago is to learn how to swim within a year or two. It is my second year now but I still cannot do the floating. I still have an issue with my fear of being in the water. I have aquaphobia but unlike before I can now go in the pool alone. My only problem now is that I cannot let go of the edge of the pool. Meaning, I only try/practice swimming holding the edge of the pool and when I try to let go, I really get nervous and anxious.

I am frustrated and I get sad everytime I get out of the pool. Sometimes I blame my parents for not teaching me how to swim when I was small. I also blame the bad things in the past which has triggered the fears that I am experiencing today. However, I am not giving up. I am just upset.

 

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Author: therebelchic

Cristina is 29-year-old photo enthusiast and an aspiring photographer. She grew up in the Philippines and moved to Norway when she was 19 years old. She is currently working in Bergen as a health care assistant and sales agent. During her free time, she would go out and explore nature in the nearby areas alone or with friends and share her adventures on her blog. She dreams of conquering each and every mountains of Norway and take photos of the fjords and wildlife. She also wants to explore portrait photography. Her gadgets of choice are smartphones, iPad and digital cameras. Her blog missrebelchic.com serve as er online book for her family, friends, acquaintances and people who share the same interests with her or for those who just need an inspiration. So basically, her blog is not only for photos but for musings as well. She also wants to inspire people to go out in nature. Disclaimer: All photos in this blog are taken by me a.k.a. The Rebel Chic unless stated otherwise.

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