My Birth Experience


My little one’s foot. 4 weeks old here.

Five months ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. The birth didn’t go smooth as I hope it would. Well, I pictured myself giving birth in just a couple of hours. I wished! But as a first timer that would be difficult and that’s what happened.. difficult. However, I’m beyond grateful that my baby was born free from any complications and she was born healthy.

As I’ve said, it didn’t go smooth because dilation stopped at 9cm and the contractions’ slowed down probably because ofย  the epidural. I had to stand, move around and sit on a fitness ball in order to speed things up but nothing worked. So, the midwives put me on oxytocin drip and reduced the epidural. Then, the delivery room suddenly got busy. Nurses, doctors and midwives were walking in and out of the room. When I asked them if something’s wrong, they would only say that they’re just checking out the situation and that there’s nothing to be worried about. I wasn’t worried but I could sense that they had some concerns because they’re babbling in the corner. Then a midwife came to me and explained that my baby’s starting to get tired or in other words distressed.

The contractions got stronger and finally fully dilated. It’s time to push (which I find the most challenging part of giving birth). I think I asked the midwives twice or even thrice if the baby was really coming because it feels like I need to take a trip to the bathroom for a number 2! ๐Ÿ˜‚ No kidding! The feeling is very similar to when you are very constipated but the urge to push is super strong. Blame it to the nerves!

Anyway, the doctors came to me and gave instructions on how to push. I did what I was told to do but I was already weak so my effort wasn’t good enough to push the baby. That’s when the second doctor came in with the vacuum to assist the birth. To be honest, I got nervous for the baby when I saw the vacuum but because of the doctors’ and midwives’ encouragement, I felt secured again. I gave all of my energy on the last push, and voila my little one’s out (after 14 hours of active labor) and cried her lungs out.

If there is something that I’ve learned from this experience is that we are stronger than we think.

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Winter Love

I remember when I was a kid that I would dream about snow and imagine how is it like to experience winter. Friends and family at the northern part of the globe were popular because they were living a dream. Actually, it is still one of the reasons why most of us from the tropics want to travel to cold countries. However, not every one has the opportunity to travel overseas.

It’s been snowing these past few days and I can’t help but reminise my very first snow experience and that was 14 years ago. Wow! I’ve already been living so long here in Norway. Time flies! Anyway, not all winters and snow are the same. Sometimes the snow is powdery perfect or sometimes wet but whatever it is I’m still grateful that despite of the climate issues, we still have the snow.

The temperature lately is below zero degrees plus the cold winds. It’s really cold. I understand that some people complain, but to wish for the winter to disappear is just wrong. We all know that the earth is warmer now than the previous years so we never know how long this will last or if we ever gonna experience snow/winter again in the future.

An old tractor

A small river

Walking on thick snow is a good workout.

Zorro tried making a snow angel

Ski tracks!

A Foggy Beginning

My life these past few months can be describe as a hazy bubble. I thought that I know everything, but the truth is I only knew the top of the whole thing. I was on the verge of giving up. I cried and wept every day, I ignored some close people around me, and every thing was just stressing me out, because all of a sudden things did not go according to plan and the anticipation once I had turned into a nightmare.

Almost three months from now, I became a mom for the first time. (Hence the long absence from the blog world.)
Who would have thought that life after pregnancy is just a start of a hard journey? I thought that the birth experience itself is the most painful thing, but I was wrong. Almost 95 percent of my family and friends has told me that having a baby is a bliss. Yes, having and meeting my baby is a bliss. Yet, it is also hard because I have to be strong and give my little one her needs even if it means sacrificing my time, energy and happiness.

Anyway, things are better now though I am still adjusting to my new routine. I am enjoying being a mom and I am grateful for this new chapter in my life.

Gray it is.

According to our interior designer, shades of gray is in today. The darker (and warmer), the better it is for the price of the house/flat. At first I did not like the idea because for me white looks neater and cleaner. Not to forget that it is easier to find furnitures and decors that would match the colour of the walls. But the hubby insisted of listening to the designer’s advice which is to go for gray. However, he opted for lighter shades of gray than what the designer suggested. The flat is around 60-70 sqm. Not that big so a very dark paint colour would make the flat appear smaller than its size. The only dark gray in the flat is the main door.

The renovation of the flat takes time. There are still lots of things to do, like installing laminate flooring, cleaning the terrace and etc. Kuddos to my hubby for doing the carpentry by himself.

 

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The hallway

Moving Process

First of all, happy new year! It is good to be back here in the blog world. I have been busy with lots of stuff and is still busy at the moment because my partner and I are packing our stuff and renovating the flat because we are soon moving out from here. The pressure is on as we have to sell this flat as soon as possible. However, I am glad because things are falling into place and I cannot wait to move into a bigger place. A bigger place means that I can have my family and friends over for a night or two and we can finally host a big dinner party finally! ๐Ÿ™‚

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Past 2 A.M. Thoughts

Even though I am on a holiday vacation, I still feel a bit guilty of staying up this late. I guess it is because that I am a time freak now. Yes, adulthood. You got it right.

I cannot sleep for this reason, a t.v. program about polar bears in Svalbard is bothering me. I forgot the name of the program but I feel bad about the fate of the polar bears not only because they are endangered species but because of the hard life that they have to go through because of our negligence and greed. I cannot also believe how can people actually think that climate change is unreal and not happening despite the evidences. In my opinion, you do not have to be a scientist to notice the changes in our environment and climate. The extreme storms in the north/west, tsunami in Asia and extreme drought in Africa- these are just some examples of the effects of climate change.