30 Years Plus 1

Wow, I just turned 31 three months ago. It feels like my previous birthdays and I never feel that I got older. So what makes it feel the same? Well, my fashion sense, makeup, foods and my inner demons.

When I was young, I thought that people who are in their 30’s are very old and boring. And so I was telling myself all the time that I do not want to get old because I did not want to look old and live a boring life. However, I was wrong. My life, in a nutshell, is filled with colours. Yes, there were times that all I wanted was to vanish but it is just 1%, the rest is just good. The 1% that I am referring to is first my anxiety because there are times that I believed that I was going to die of my fears (irrational fears). And then second, I feel like some people around me are pressuring me when it comes to when hubby and I going to have kids.

I have learned that I cannot control whatever comes out of other people’s mouth. All I can do is to choose what I will or will not accept and to remember that I own my life and it is I who is in control of it and not them. The same goes to friendships. Before, I used to have hundreds of friends but as I get older I realized that what matters for me is the ones who are true and not the number. Then when it comes to my anxiety, I have realized that I am better at coping with it today. I also do not mind showing my what I feel to others because the more I hide my anxiety, the more it will dominate over me.

To sum up, I am beyond grateful for this life that I have. It may not be perfect but I can say that it has shaped me into a better woman that I am today, a good daughter, sister, citizen and a good partner.

 

 

 

 

Author: therebelchic

Cristina is 29-year-old photo enthusiast and an aspiring photographer. She grew up in the Philippines and moved to Norway when she was 19 years old. She is currently working in Bergen as a health care assistant and sales agent. During her free time, she would go out and explore nature in the nearby areas alone or with friends and share her adventures on her blog. She dreams of conquering each and every mountains of Norway and take photos of the fjords and wildlife. She also wants to explore portrait photography. Her gadgets of choice are smartphones, iPad and digital cameras. Her blog missrebelchic.com serve as er online book for her family, friends, acquaintances and people who share the same interests with her or for those who just need an inspiration. So basically, her blog is not only for photos but for musings as well. She also wants to inspire people to go out in nature. Disclaimer: All photos in this blog are taken by me a.k.a. The Rebel Chic unless stated otherwise.

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